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New Year….and???

Posted in Family, Life, Love, Thoughts, Trips, Work with tags , , , on December 30, 2008 by bilogboy


happy-new-year

The long been waited post is finally here…..lol.

I always am in a certain mood whenever I write an entry….now may be a littly different and all but nevertheless I think its just about time that I make myself active again.

Christmas just passed, a happy holiday to all readers. Well my Christmas was spent t the office, my first time there after all these years, but still it’s a nice one shared with friends and colleagues. This month has been so stressful specially the financial part of the yuletide season. Well it can’t be helped, there will be no one to spend so much for our family but of course yours truly, better to give than to receive mode (lol).

Let me go now to the thought my mind has been thinking of for quite sometime now. Well as the year close to an end, I figured, what are the things that happened to me this past 2008? Nothing much I suppose but I tend not to think of those things as just “nothings” because if I do then there really was nothing that happened to me this year.

Let me make some note on the things that I consider a highlight of this year.

Career:

Hmm, a new support that was very promising at the beginning and now I don’t know where it will take us but the phase its going through now, its more stressful than my previous account. I just hope that everything will be better next year.

Love:

Old love trashed, new one set. That easy….lol. well for those who knows my love path, I guess my current one could be considered the best yet among the others. Don’t know the details too but im just waiting for whatever tomorrow would bring.

Friends:

Hmm….what can I say, a lot happened already and I am thankful that my friends are still there beside me. For those who has doubts about WHATEVER wakeup and smell the roses (choz)…..i am thankfull for all of you and for all those who always takes me in their arms even at times that I don’t deserve the care at all (you know who you are). Again thanks for all the memories and more power to us next year…..

Family:

Been through some rough road this year (still rough up to now if I may say so) but im glad everything is as manageable as it can be. Still lacking things for more comfort but what can I say, this is life, it needs to be hard, play with it the best way you can lolz…

Resolution:

Well I never really have one the past 25 years of my existence. I just go to what life brings, deal with it when I am faced with it. Call me lax but that’s just my way of being a ninja hehehe…..(or is that the first thing that I need to change???hmmmm)

Nevertheless I hope that this new year be more exciting than the last one. More blessings, more love, more happiness, more positive things hehehe….i am getting nowhere with this….

Thank you for all the people, friends, and loved ones that I met this past year. you have given me lessons in life one way or another and I am grateful that I met you, chat with you, txt you or in any kind of way that I know you thanks. For all the help and support, keep it coming next year…I still need those…all the best for us… see yah…..

Quote 002

Posted in Life, Quotes, Thoughts with tags , , on September 3, 2008 by bilogboy

Here is the another quote that I forwarded to my friends. Again I just want it to be remembered here….don’t you just agree with what this one say???

“Pretending to be happy when your in pain is just an example of how strong you are as a person as a person..

Still making that simple smile when every part of you dies.”

Its just that how long can we continue wearing the mask before the world can see the real us…….

Hmmmm….something

Posted in Family, Love, Thoughts, Work with tags , , on September 2, 2008 by bilogboy

Long time again. Many things to do that are really stressful on my part but things are just the way they are supposed to be. Anyway I just like to share an article I happen to read from a friend’s friend. This more or less shows in details the things that I am experiencing right now (on top of other things), so enjoy it and hope to hear from you too….

“Being Twenty Something…

They call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.” It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job… and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out……”

Smiles…

Posted in Thoughts with tags , on August 20, 2008 by bilogboy

“We get by with a smile…”, that is what I remember about a song from a famous band way back then. But I know that I always smile even way before that song has been released. It has always been my mask, my shelter and my cover. But for how long can a smile really help me get by?

A smile nevertheless is engraved on my face any time of the day. Seldom has it been that you would see me not wearing one. People say that even when I sing, no matter what type of song, my smile is still there, haunting me lolz.

Its true smile lifts one’s spirit. Whenever I am troubled and when I smile its gives out a light feeling in my chest and I know that everything will be fine. But now even my biggest smile can’t even give me assurance anymore. Is it just me or its just that things are all been up a notch higher now, everything seems to step up to the next level or so.

I still get by with a smile, but it will take more that my million dollars worth smile to win everything that life would bring. I know it’s not enough to just flash my teeth out-front but at least I have an unlimited ammo of that still helping me to get by one step at a time.

Reflect

Posted in Thoughts with tags , on July 22, 2008 by bilogboy

Haaaaaayyyyy…..(haba, lol)…just a few more days and it will happen again. How time flies, I barely recognize that its been this long already, glad that after all this year I still recognize myself, yes its still me, nothing really changed much about me, Im still me. Emo mode again??? Not really, this is just something to that I think I am doing, a reflection of some sort.

I remember back then when all I have to think about is to just go to school, just be present no pressure, excel or not no one really care as long as I stay in class and just do my part as a student. But this thought never really stayed that long throughout the 15 years of education. Early primary level then that I realized that my coming to school is not just a job for me, it also has a toll to my family. They are the ones that help me prepare my things, my allowance, help me out with things etc. and seeing them do all those things then made me appreciate them (even if im not that vocal about it), my family, even if I don’t have the conventional type.

Many things happened since then, (many things will still happen of course), I was able to meet people that eventually became part of my life, in a small or a big way, people that will be treasured in my life forever. There are a lot of ups and downs, a roller coaster ride, but im still here, still continuing to strive to be someone, still fighting the good fight. Until when? I don’t really know, but I know I wont go down that easy and without a good fight.

But on top of everything, I guess there is just one way to go, forward. I am not getting any younger and by the looks of things I need to really make out my plans in life to start the walk (run) as early as now (hope im not yet late, I guess not). As a line in a movie I recently seen says, “yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift that is why its called present”, its true that today is the most important thing since it is “today” but I guess I just got interested in the study of the future, may it be fortune telling or what (lol) I think its time for me to take things up a notch and unravel the mystery.

Away…

Posted in Trips with tags , , on July 2, 2008 by bilogboy

Bestfriends

I have free time again so let me write about the trip I had last weekend in Tagaytay. Kathy my best friend, since college, is about to go abroad that is why we decided to have time to bond again before she leaves. And so with our significant others we packed our bags and head off to Tagaytay City.

The plan was just an overnight stay, we met up on the station late Saturday afternoon. After about almost 2 hours on the van we arrived at our destination. Weather was a little rainy then so we decided to stay in our inn for a couple of hours before having dinner, time to rest as well after the tiring ride. Good thing the rain is not that hard and we manage to have dinner on this resto where the serving is basically good for 10 (lol).

Anyway I just don’t want to tell all the bits and pieces about that trip on this entry, not that I don’t but I guess it is just a little irrelevant anyway. What I just want to tell is that at least I had a day away from the city. A time to relax and just be free, just enjoying the time as it passes.

I figured that I take things clearer now than before, it’s not because of this trip when I realized, I just want to say it now. Things do change and perhaps we are not just aware of them when they happen but eventually we will learn to recognize it.

Nevertheless the trip was fun and just happened on the right time. I missed Kathy for the longest time and it’s a good thing that we bonded again. As if it was just yesterday when I first met her and look at her now. She truly is one of a kind. I am happy for her especially now that she has someone that makes her smile again after everything that she’s been through. I know that even with the distance our friendship will always be there, still growing every time.

I am thinking of another city get away but with more friends to be with this time. Just need to do the proper planning and thinking for this. It’s nice to be with friends that you cherish and love once in a while away from all the hassle and stress of the city. Till my next entry…..