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Quote 002

Posted in Life, Quotes, Thoughts with tags , , on September 3, 2008 by bilogboy

Here is the another quote that I forwarded to my friends. Again I just want it to be remembered here….don’t you just agree with what this one say???

“Pretending to be happy when your in pain is just an example of how strong you are as a person as a person..

Still making that simple smile when every part of you dies.”

Its just that how long can we continue wearing the mask before the world can see the real us…….

Hmmmm….something

Posted in Family, Love, Thoughts, Work with tags , , on September 2, 2008 by bilogboy

Long time again. Many things to do that are really stressful on my part but things are just the way they are supposed to be. Anyway I just like to share an article I happen to read from a friend’s friend. This more or less shows in details the things that I am experiencing right now (on top of other things), so enjoy it and hope to hear from you too….

“Being Twenty Something…

They call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.” It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job… and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out……”

Quote 001

Posted in Love, Quotes, Thoughts with tags , , on August 20, 2008 by bilogboy

I’m thinking of posting quotes from the text messages that I normally send out to my friends here as well, so that even if I remove them on my phone, it will still be treasured here, on my little space on the web.

“Love is not always like a fairytale. There are people who give so much love to those who don’t love them back. There are some who feel so loved and find out in the end that they were fooled. There are some who’s into mutual love but can’t call their partner as their own because someone already holds the title. There are some who gives so much love but the other won’t believe because they always consider your past. There are some who receive so much love but can’t seem to move on from previous relationship. Or others just want to play the game and choose their playmate.”

Smiles…

Posted in Thoughts with tags , on August 20, 2008 by bilogboy

“We get by with a smile…”, that is what I remember about a song from a famous band way back then. But I know that I always smile even way before that song has been released. It has always been my mask, my shelter and my cover. But for how long can a smile really help me get by?

A smile nevertheless is engraved on my face any time of the day. Seldom has it been that you would see me not wearing one. People say that even when I sing, no matter what type of song, my smile is still there, haunting me lolz.

Its true smile lifts one’s spirit. Whenever I am troubled and when I smile its gives out a light feeling in my chest and I know that everything will be fine. But now even my biggest smile can’t even give me assurance anymore. Is it just me or its just that things are all been up a notch higher now, everything seems to step up to the next level or so.

I still get by with a smile, but it will take more that my million dollars worth smile to win everything that life would bring. I know it’s not enough to just flash my teeth out-front but at least I have an unlimited ammo of that still helping me to get by one step at a time.

Reflect

Posted in Thoughts with tags , on July 22, 2008 by bilogboy

Haaaaaayyyyy…..(haba, lol)…just a few more days and it will happen again. How time flies, I barely recognize that its been this long already, glad that after all this year I still recognize myself, yes its still me, nothing really changed much about me, Im still me. Emo mode again??? Not really, this is just something to that I think I am doing, a reflection of some sort.

I remember back then when all I have to think about is to just go to school, just be present no pressure, excel or not no one really care as long as I stay in class and just do my part as a student. But this thought never really stayed that long throughout the 15 years of education. Early primary level then that I realized that my coming to school is not just a job for me, it also has a toll to my family. They are the ones that help me prepare my things, my allowance, help me out with things etc. and seeing them do all those things then made me appreciate them (even if im not that vocal about it), my family, even if I don’t have the conventional type.

Many things happened since then, (many things will still happen of course), I was able to meet people that eventually became part of my life, in a small or a big way, people that will be treasured in my life forever. There are a lot of ups and downs, a roller coaster ride, but im still here, still continuing to strive to be someone, still fighting the good fight. Until when? I don’t really know, but I know I wont go down that easy and without a good fight.

But on top of everything, I guess there is just one way to go, forward. I am not getting any younger and by the looks of things I need to really make out my plans in life to start the walk (run) as early as now (hope im not yet late, I guess not). As a line in a movie I recently seen says, “yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift that is why its called present”, its true that today is the most important thing since it is “today” but I guess I just got interested in the study of the future, may it be fortune telling or what (lol) I think its time for me to take things up a notch and unravel the mystery.

Nanay

Posted in Family, Thoughts with tags , , on July 21, 2008 by bilogboy
nanay

nanay

I know its late pero gs2 ko pa rin sabihin…..

Happy Birthday to you Nanay….love you…miss ka na naming lahat (sob)…watch over us always….

Friends

Posted in Thoughts with tags , on July 17, 2008 by bilogboy

Yah it’s been a while already and I know it. Just been busy with others things and can barely check on my blog anymore. Guess it’s true what they say, no matter how well you try to balance your time you just can’t really attend to anything. Needless to say I know that it is true, it’s the same as making a sin even if you try not to make one, etc.

Life really has many uncertainties, many trials, it’s hard to be alone in this life and it’s a good thing we have our family and our friends to back us up everytime we need a boost or the like. There maybe different levels in their importance but who cares and does it really matter? For me leveling to such relationships does not happen, when I treat you as a friend or what, you really are one to me so don’t give me any crap about it. It just frustrates me that there are times that you will be ask to do something just so that your bond will be proven, just so that they know that you really treat them like that. And no matter how honest you become, how sincere and how you give everything (though it maybe not that much that’s all you can get), you are still being doubted.

Though I know levels can’t really be denied that should not be a bearing of any relationship. Let me just put it this way, in my life I’ve met a lot and make friends with more. Some stick and some disappears yet they are all never forgotten. Only a few really stands out among all of them and you know who you guys are. I know I have my shortcomings and all but I know you guys can understand (???), there maybe times that you cant understand me anymore but this is still me, the same me that you always know. Also try to think about the things that you are doing as well, it may not be just me that changed but so are you, so evaluate things more. If our friendship is true there’s nothing to worry about. Guess I am saying this to all my friends out there. Whoever you are, wherever you are, if you are my best, my BFF, just a friend, someone that I just shared a hi with, or a future friend perhaps, this is me, this is me on my general view in friendship, take it or leave it (just tell me if you will go okay??? lol). Until next time again…keep smiling…