Archive for September, 2008

letter from the editor

Posted in 1 on September 29, 2008 by bilogboy

Dear you,

It’s been a while since we talked…..many things happened already. Sorry for not keeping you updated with everything, the thing is I’m trying to keep everything to myself as far as I can. I don’t want to burden you with everything you know. But here I am again, talking to you now, at least just to share all this thoughts with you.

Everything is still not that okay but it still just means that it will be better soon. I’m trying to hold on to everything as hard as I can because I know letting go will just lead to worst things for everything.

Well, I want to expound on things further but the words just passed out of my head, just like that….I’ll try to get a hold of it again soon for me to tell it to you again….thanks for being here to record all these feelings… until then

Always,

bilogboy

Quote 002

Posted in Life, Quotes, Thoughts with tags , , on September 3, 2008 by bilogboy

Here is the another quote that I forwarded to my friends. Again I just want it to be remembered here….don’t you just agree with what this one say???

“Pretending to be happy when your in pain is just an example of how strong you are as a person as a person..

Still making that simple smile when every part of you dies.”

Its just that how long can we continue wearing the mask before the world can see the real us…….

Hmmmm….something

Posted in Family, Love, Thoughts, Work with tags , , on September 2, 2008 by bilogboy

Long time again. Many things to do that are really stressful on my part but things are just the way they are supposed to be. Anyway I just like to share an article I happen to read from a friend’s friend. This more or less shows in details the things that I am experiencing right now (on top of other things), so enjoy it and hope to hear from you too….

“Being Twenty Something…

They call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.” It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job… and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out……”